I've never changed.
From day one I've done my best to be open, honest, vulnerable, and straight up.
I've been there for you.
I've tried being away for you.
I've tried stepping in.
I've tried stepping away.
I've tried rescuing.
I've tried allowing.
I can tell you that I have always, always loved you with the whole of my being.
I know without a doubt that I can look myself in the mirror ...
I'm giving you what I feel is your wish from me.
I'm f** off.
Not because I want to .............but because I'm not going to allow myself to step up to the punching bag over and over and over again.,
I'm out of whatever the hell this fight is.
This is my email address.
You have my phone number.
I truly love you .
But ...........I will not reach out to you again so as to be ignored, disrespected and dismissed.
You are always welcomed to email me, call me ............or show up at my door.
The ball is in your court.
I'm not walking away mad.
I'm just not doing this to myself anymore.
I will no longer contact you first.
I hope and pray that one day ...........you will remember me for who I was and am in your life and you will be back in touch.